Living In Your Fantasy World

Believe it or not, everyone has a made up a world where everything is better in their head. There is no one alive who can say 'life is perfect' and or 'I wouldn't change it for the world' and mean it because they know what they were thinking about a few seconds ago or even a few days ago.
Building a fantasy world in my head was a way to cope with the crazy so I wouldn't go crazy.
Okay, saying it's a fantasy world is a stretch considering I can't stick with one thought for too long. I mean I form different stories in my mind, different scenarios where movies could have gone, books, tv shows or sometimes I make up my own thing. This is one of the reasons why I am such a sad critic.
Such worlds are a good thing. It keeps your emotions from shutting down, keeps your mind rolling on things that was and could be, helps with ideas and creations, just all rounds makes you BETTER!
I love day dreaming. I have lapsed into my realms for hours where I would snap out of it and projects would be done, stories would be written and my art would have a new twist to it that makes it more BEAUTIFUL.
Because that is what life is about right? Finding the beauty in things? Considering all my problems this kind of thinking  is a plus. I'm not sitting in a corner cutting myself or becoming a social recluse because my family is f@#ked up.
That is why if someone ever asked me what my favorite book was I would say 'Alice in Wonderland'. Although I don't agree with practically half the writing in the book it was the match that lit my imaginary fire back in the day. I mean telling kids a little girl followed a rabbit into hole and ended up in another world is a little stupid considering children tend to follow what they read and see and everytime I pictured some little Trinidadian girl following a rabbit into some man-sized hole I always see a big asS snake or some other predator stePping out with fabric hanging out their mouths.
But it is a classic read for fantasy.
I once forgot a SBA I had to write and had and evening to prepare something to show the next day. I was so out of it I just sat there watching my brother watch Justice League on the TV, when I lapsed into one of my coma's. I remembered a scene where I literally repeated the lines where Batman tried to explain to Catwoman why he couldn't go around with the her stealing, at a guy who tried to pick me up at a Chinese restaurant.
"I'm sorry, in my line of work my attention is needed on things that are important."
To say it lightly the guy wasn't too happy but I'm pretty sure he didn't hear a thing I said considering my boobs were telling everyone howdy that evening.
But that one little lapse led to me sitting in front of my computer for six solid hours typing away until I literally had the entire the SBA typed and printed.
The story I created in my head and wrote out was so detailed you could have sworn I was working on it for days.
If I had a choice I wouldn't even have to think about it because I would choose the fantasy over the reality because the reality sucks!!!